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Sunday, November 20, 2005
All I can Do Is Sit Alone in My Room
And Write Another
Song For You
I find it amazing that no matter what, whenever something like this happens, Stepfanie is the first person that I play to express my self. I just hung out with her tonight, actually. How odd that I'd be using one of her songs in a blog the very same night.
" I've (repressed) so many tears as you've walked away from me,
Tears You'll Never See
And I ignored it, but inevetably everything ends.
But does it have to end today? Why do you walk away when I need you the most?
And It's all that I can do, Is sit alone in my room, and write another song for you.
And you'd stretch me to my breaking point, I didn't mean to be a dissapointment, and I don't want it to be over.
'Cause it's all over you, and it's all over me, and there's nothing we can do to wash our hands clean of what we've done, and who we are.
And I'm sorry if this isn't part of your plan. i'm doing the best I can to make sure you're content. Don't spread yourself so thing. (Your) love isn't a sin, you shouldn't feel the need to repent.
So hold me till the sun kisses my cheeks, and you kiss my lips, kiss my lips
I pretend I'm strong , but you know I am weak, like sand through your fingertips.
And most of my emotion is lying on your bed, on your bedroom floor,
And you have no choice but to believe me when I tell you I always, I always loved you more
And it's all that I can do, is sit alone in my room, and write another song for you."
God Damn It.
Fuck.
Ugh.
Posted at 12:11 am by morbidpoe111
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Friday, November 18, 2005
Bite My Lip, My Tongue,
Just Don't Cry...
Well... I've had an interesting few days. Especially yesterday. I effing took 1st place in the talent show. 1st!! The competition was really fierce, too. There were so many good people singing. I was up against Melissa Jackson, who took second, Ashley Lampkins and Krista Steigerwaldt, who took third together, Lauren Champlin, Melissa Rumrill, Rachel Rodriguez and Chris Cartier.... And I won.
I sang my song, called, "I miss you". I've been perfecting that song for over a year now. For real. I rembmer writing some of the lyrics freshman year as a poem, then I started working on the piano in choir sophomore year, and I wrote music around them and added more lyrics, and I've still been getting it just right up until about two months ago. That one song has been my baby for over a year. I have only written two complete songs, because I can't just produce something without getting it just right before I finalize it. My poor friends were probably subjected to that song 200 times last year. Every day before drama, during 5th hour, I worked on it. People listened because they wanted to be in the practice room with me, and I'm sure I tired the hell out of that damn song. But look where it's gotten me. As a kid, I dreamed of doing that. Getting in front of a crowd, and just eminating. I knew this song was going to take me places, whether it be in life, or in my own personal development, and now it has.
I remember singing Alanis Morissette Acapella in the talent show in 2nd grade. I forgot the lyrics right in the middle, I was horrified of going in front of all those people. I figured that I'd always be nervous of doing that, because it means so much to me. I have only been onstage doing my OWN things a few times since then. Every time I get nervous and don't really do my best. Last night, I walked out on that stage, the lights hit my face, and after a few technical things, I just sang my heart out. I was the only person in that room. The full audience did not exist, It was just me and my piano. I wasn't nervous whatsoever. I was , in fact, nervous that I wasn't nervous. I know that this is what I'm supposed to be doing forever. This is what i'm meant for. I had always wondered if i'd make it, or if anything would happen, if anyone would appreciate what i'd made, or if it was even any good. I got my answer last night. I'm a musician. I've always WANTED to be, I just never thought that I'd be recognized as one.
For real, It has still not sunk in to me that I won. I effing won. Now all I can think , is what's next? I need to start writing again, and more often. A song a year is not a very good pace, but art takes time, I suppose, and it's different per the artist. I'm so happy, and thankful for everyone putting up with hearing that damn piano riff on an endless loop for the last year.
I also need to thank Stepfanie Steinkopf, because if it weren't for her, I wouldn't have done the talent show. Who remembers my blog entry right before school ended? The letter she wrote to me and gave to me at graduation. I said I was going to do what it said. I've done that. I did the talent show because Stepfanie told me that I needed to. I'd have probably kept it a secret forever had she not. I'm not sure if she was there, I didn't see her, but she told me she was going. Either way, I really have her to thank for giving me that nudge,
ok this is probably really boring and sappy to everyone who's actually read this far by now, so I'll go.
WOW....
Cole
Posted at 02:06 pm by morbidpoe111
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Saturday, November 12, 2005
I Can't Keep
My Hands Off You
A million quizzes........
| A bunch of stupid, random questions to beat the boredom |
| What do you wanna be when you grow up?: |
an Insipiration |
| Is 30 old?: |
A bit |
| What's your major?: |
No clue yet. |
| Do you have a crush on anyone?: |
Doesn't everyone? |
| What's the prettiest part of your body?: |
My Hair |
| What celebrity would you shag?: |
most Celebrities. |
| Have you shagged any celebrities?: |
Oh yes, many. |
| Have you met any celebrities?: |
I met the lead singer of The Academy Is... |
| Do you think you'll ever get married?: |
I might |
| What do you want your wedding song to be?: |
Something that really fits us as a couple |
| If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?: |
Probably London to see Imogen Heap |
| If you were stranded on a desert island,what 2 things would you take withu?: |
Someone Else, A piano. |
| What is your favorite club?: |
Club Sandwich. |
| Movie you wished you had starred in: |
Romeo + Juliet - I may not be as cute as Leo, but I'm a MUCH better actor (not that that's a real acomplishment) |
| Any other celebrities you would shag?: |
Most celebrities. |
| Who is the coolest person you know?: |
Myself? Lol. |
| Who do you know of that you wanna meet, but you've never met?: |
Imogen Heap, Amy Lee |
| Name the 5 most beautiful people that you know.: |
Probably (in no particular Order) Elley, Karey, Jessie, Chelsea H., and Stepfanie |
| Name the 5 most brilliant people that you know.: |
*again in no particular order* Greg Lara Courtney Audrey Elley |
| Whats the best class you ever took?: |
Probably Home Ec., for real, i loved that so much. |
| What's the best job you've ever had?: |
I've only had one. And It's not that great. |
| Is there someone that you cant stop thinking about that doesnt know it?: |
Of Course. |
| what song is in your head right now?: |
Headlock - Imogen Heap |
| What did you eat for breakfast this morning?: |
Nothing thus far. |
| Do you love your mom?: |
Absolutely |
| Do you love your dad?: |
I'm not sure. |
| Do you love our siblings?: |
I love my sister more than any other living being. |
| Do you get along better with men or women?: |
Depends on the Men/Women. I have more Girls as friends, but I have a completely different bond with guy friends. |
| Plain or peanut?: |
What? |
| smooth or crunchy?: |
Smooth. |
| White or wheat?: |
White, but not wonder bread. |
| Coldplay or Nivana?: |
Nirvana, hands down. |
| Purple or Chartruese?: |
Chartruese. It's one of may favorites, actually. |
| Aliens or Ghosts?: |
Ghosts are so much more interesting. Aliens are bound to exist. Ghosts are arguable. |
| Do you believe in ghosts?: |
I don't know for sure. It's very complicated. |
| Favorite movie?: |
Breakfast at Tiffany's |
| Favorite Christian Slater movie?: |
I really don't tihnk I know of any! |
| favorite drink?: |
Fruit Punch, or Chocolate Milk. |
| Favorite alchoholic drink?: |
I really don't like the taste of aclohol. |
| Favorite mixed drink?: |
I love the "Pretty in Pink" at benihanas. It's a mix of grenadine, soy milk, and other flavors. |
| Favorite city?: |
That I've been to? Ann Arbor |
| Favorite store?: |
Probably Lucky or UO |
| vices?: |
Miami Vice |
| addictions?: |
Telveision on DVD |
| fetishes?: |
um. none that I know of. |
| Favorite food?: |
Sushi |
| Favorite animal?: |
Three Toed Sloth |
| Best friends name(s)?: |
Omg - sooo many. In alphabetical order by first name: Aaron, Audrey, Courtney, Danielle, Greg, Jessie, Lara, Lauren C. , Lexi. |
| Think of a number between 1 and 10: |
4 |
| WRONG!!!: |
ok. |
| Have you ever thrown up on someone really hot?: |
If My toilet is someone really hot, then yes. Yes I have. |
| Has anyone really hot ever thrown up on you?: |
Nope. |
| Have you ever been to mexico?: |
No. |
| Do you obssess over little things?: |
Many. |
| Do you have any tatoos?: |
Nope. |
| Do you have any peircings?: |
Not anymore. |
| What is your ethnic background?: |
Spanish, Polish, Hungarian, English |
| Name three sexy people's myspace names.: |
AIM SN'S: MorbidPoe111 DOyouLOVEit TheSurrealLife12 DareU2Conform |
| now 3 more.: |
I don't have enough screenames for 3 more |
| now 3 more.: |
See Above |
| Have you ever broken anyones heart?: |
I don't think so |
| Has anyone ever broken your heart?: |
Yes. |
| Do you refer to anyone as "the one that got away": |
No. |
| Have you slept with anyone that is on myspace?: |
greg and I shared a bed once. So have Courtney and I, too. If you mean sex, then no. |
| Did you think that that question was a little too personal?: |
Not really, it's just sleeping... haha. |
| Republican or democrat?: |
Democrat. |
| liberal or conservative?: |
Liberal. If there's a conservative democrat, They should just proceed to their own funeral. |
| what's your favorite word?: |
I really like the word "fruit"... i dunno why - It sounds pretty. |
| who is the hottest woman/man in the world?: |
Anjelina Jolie/ Jude Law |
| Who would you kill if your morals would allow?: |
If my morals would allow, and I would have no punishment in this life or the afterlife, i'd probably Kill Forrest March. Dumb people. Why do they exist? |
| what's your favorite restaurant?: |
um... ajishin? Rush Street? Gratzi? Stout? |
| are you glad this quiz is over?: |
sure? |
| tricked ya! What color are your underwear right now?: |
im wearing pajama pants. |
| If you could join one band, what would it be?: |
Probably MCR |
| If you could resurrect one band, who would it be?: |
Nirvana |
| Favorite male vocalist?: |
Willy - the Academy Is |
| Favorite female vocalist?: |
Imogen Heap |
| favorite athelete?: |
Ew. |
| favorite body part on a guy/girl?: |
hip bones |
| What your ideal mate should look like?: |
Beautiful, Disshevelled, Non Conventional |
| what your ideal mate should act like?: |
A hopeless mess |
| what your ideal mate should be intersted in.: |
Art. Culture. |
| how he/she should propose: |
Originally. |
| What band does your ideal mate absolutley have to love?: |
Art. |
| what can your ideal mate not do?: |
Cheat on Me, Or be interested in someone else. |
| give 10 initials (max) of the boys/girls first names that you want.: |
ABCDEFGHIJK |
| Do you believe in soul mates?: |
I think so. |
| Do you love yourself?: |
Most of the time |
| Do you love your friends?: |
yes. |
| Who do you love the most in the whole wide world?: |
My sister, or My grandmother/grandfather |
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| Random Thoughts For A Troubled Youth |
| name a song from your childhood: |
The Phantom of The Opera |
| what outfit would you wear for the rest of your life?: |
A comfortable and cute one |
| redheads, brunettes, or blondes?: |
no pref |
| best advice ever given: |
Fuck Everyone Else *(not sexually)* |
| last movie that made you cry: |
ShopGirl |
| last song that made you cry: |
Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap |
| last person to make you cry: |
um... probably a parent. |
| what brightens up your day?: |
My Friends |
| biggest pet peeve?: |
people playing notes on the piano when i'm playing. |
| totally in love with someone?: |
in LOVE? no. |
| do they know?: |
no. |
| if no, would you ever tell them?: |
probably not. There would be no point. |
| worst trend?: |
Popped collars, or pants down on knees |
| what city do you hate the most?: |
Brighton |
| favorite solo artist?: |
Imogen Heap |
| favorite band?: |
Evanescence or Frou Frou |
| band/artist that you love but wouldn't tell anyone: |
I'm very open about what I like. |
| what was your last dream about?: |
My Step and Owning a Brothel |
| how many pairs of shoes do you own?: |
4, i think. |
| which is your favorite?: |
My Vans or My Chuks |
| would you date someone on personality alone?: |
I'd love to say yes, but probably not. |
| would you date someone on looks alone?: |
No. |
| biggest obsession?: |
Right now, Imogen Heap and Desperate Housewives |
| do you do any activities that none of your friends do?: |
Yes. |
| if yes, what is it?: |
I Record and Mix Music. |
| city life or country life?: |
city |
| ford or chevy?: |
ford |
| would you ever kill someone?: |
To save my life, or the life of someone I care for, yes. |
| ever met someone over the internet?: |
Probably. No one I can think of offhand, but i'm sure there's a friend's friend that I started talking to and then finally met in person or something. |
| when was the last time you rode a bike?: |
Wow. Forever ago. |
| what is your dream car?: |
I just want a little jetta or a bug. |
| dream house?: |
A Flat in NYC, probably. |
| are you keeping a secret right now?: |
I'm sure,. |
| favorite place to travel to: |
I love Disney World. Happiest Place on Earth, for real. |
| do you like Bob Dylan?: |
Nope. jacob has some good songs tho. |
| favorite material posession: |
Probably Lucy, My iPod. |
| favorite non-material posession: |
A voice. |
| would you date a good friend?: |
Depends on the friend and relationship. |
| would you date a total stranger?: |
Doubt it. |
| simpsons or futurama?: |
Futurama. |
| what news channel do you watch?: |
Comedy Central and E! |
| favorite drink: |
Friut Punch or Chocolate Milk |
| organized or a mess?: |
Depends. |
| something weird about your hometown: |
It exists. |
| something nobody knows about you: |
I once died my bangs blonde, and the rest of my hair brown. |
| religion?: |
Agnostic |
| turn ons?: |
Hopelessness, Unconventionalism, Sweetness |
| turn offs?: |
Over Confidence, Over Gaiety, Under Confidence, General ignorance and/or stupidity. |
| driver or passengers seat?: |
Passenger's seat, shotgun |
| what song do you want playing at your funeral?: |
Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve |
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| The Story of *ME* |
| * JUST THE BASICS * |
| What's your full name?: |
Cole Huston Burton |
| What is/are your nickname/s?: |
Coley, Colon, Colonoscopy |
| What year were you born?: |
1988 |
| What's your astrological sign?: |
Sagitarius |
| What's your ethnic makeup?: |
Eye Liner - HAHA |
| * LET'S NIT-PICK * |
| Which is your dominant hand?: |
Right, but i'm Ambedextrious |
| What is/was your best subject in school?: |
English, Lit |
| What kind/s of music do you prefer?: |
Indie, Ethereal, Neo Classical |
| Here's a $100! What are you going to buy?: |
TV on Dvd and some books |
| Describe your dream dinner:: |
A lot of shushi, and bagettes, and fresh fruit, and fondue, and I'd be realllllly full already, so i'll stop |
| * THAT'S OBSCURE * |
| What kind of toothbrush are you currently using?: |
Oral B |
| What is your preferred department store?: |
Lord & Taylor have the best clothes. |
| What brand of socks are you wearing?: |
no clue |
| What's your all-time favorite cough drop?: |
Ludens are the only ones that don't taste like mentholated poop |
| What is your favorite era of American history?: |
Historically, the 60's/70's, artistically, the 90's |
| * GETTING PERSONAL * |
| Do you enjoy the company of men?: |
Sure |
| Do you enjoy sex with men?: |
I am a virgin, but i'd immagine that I do. |
| Do you enjoy the company of women?: |
Mmhmm. |
| Do you enjoy sex with women?: |
Again, Virgin, but I bed I do. |
| How do you feel about polyamoury: |
I'm monamouristic |
| * MISC * |
| How do you feel about your nation's leader/s?: |
I just induced Vomitting |
| How do you feel about capital punishment?: |
I believe that if people change, they deserve to be forgiven. |
| How do you feel about abortion?: |
I don't believe in it personally, but I don't tihnk it's my right to tell other people whether or not they can believe in it. |
| What do you currently do for a living?: |
I am a professional in Human/popcorn relations. |
| What do you wish you could be doing for a living?: |
Create |
| You're listening to music before bed-- what's playing?: |
I'm sure It's Imogen Heap or Frou Frou |
| How long did this survey take you?: |
Not very |
| What could you have been doing instead?: |
Not much. Haha. |
| Why didn't you?: |
Cause i'm too cool. |
| Was this worthwhile?: |
? |
| Any final words?: |
Schnozzberries |
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| Have you ever/ would you ever? |
| Have you ever..................? |
| Been in a fist fight?: |
I don't think so |
| Swam in a pond?: |
Yes |
| Played soccer?: |
Yes |
| Eaten chewed gum under chairs: |
NO |
| Played spin the bottle: |
Yes |
| Stood in front of a mirror for hours: |
I don't think for HOURS |
| Talked on the phone for hours?: |
yes, absolutely |
| Eaten just because you were bored: |
yep. All the fukken time |
| Tried to time travel: |
I don't tihnk so. |
| Watched a rated R movie: |
well yeah. |
| Had surgery?: |
No |
| Driven a car?: |
Not legally |
| Skimboarded?: |
No |
| Touched a snake?: |
yes |
| Warmed yourself by a campfire: |
yes, of course |
| Tried to eat hot chili peppers: |
yes |
| Burned yourself on accident/ on purpose?: |
yes |
| Walked in the rain without an umbrella?: |
yes! |
| Covered up for someone who was in trouble?: |
yes. |
| Failed an important test?: |
Oh, probably |
| Thrown a frisbee?: |
yeah |
| Jumped in puddles?: |
yes |
| Made a clubhouse?: |
haha, yep. |
| Mowed the lawn?: |
yes. |
| Shovelled snow or raked leaves?: |
yes, both, and I despise both. |
| Broken a bone?: |
unoficially, maybe some toes. |
| Farted in public in front to a large group of people: |
OOOOH yes. |
| Climbed a tree: |
who hasn't climbed a tree? |
| Fired a gun: |
Yes. B-B gun, squirtgun, shotgun, paintball gun. |
| Wrote on yourself so you wouldn't forget something: |
almost daily. |
| Had a dream that came true (literally): |
yes. |
| Flown in an airplane?: |
yes |
| Carved a pumpkin?: |
yes |
| Fooled around with a metal detector: |
Mm hmm. |
| Breakdanced in front of a large group of people: |
nope. |
| Chugged a entire can of pop/ juice?: |
I don't recall. i must have at some point. |
| Now Would you ever.................? |
| Clean a poorly maintained gas station bathroom: |
Nope. |
| Touch a shark?: |
yes |
| Play video games for days ?: |
If it's a good game (poke'mon) |
| Tie someone's shoe laces together?: |
yes |
| Chop down a tree?: |
Probably |
| Play in the elevator by *experimenting with the buttons: |
maybe. |
| Sit on a dock and watch the waves splash against the shore?: |
yes |
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| Long Survey About Yourself |
| What time are you starting this?: |
3:28 pm |
| Name?: |
Cole |
| Nicknames?: |
Coley, Colonoscopy, Colon |
| Date of birth?: |
12.17.88 |
| Sex?: |
Male |
| Height?: |
like 5 10 or 11 |
| Eye color?: |
Brown and weird green |
| Where were you born?: |
St. Mary's in Livonia |
| Number of candles on your last birthday cake?: |
16, but my birthday is in less than a month. |
| Pets?: |
Yes. Two cats, Angelo and Butterscotch, and A Dog, Zeus |
| Hair color?: |
Dark Brown/black |
| Piercings?: |
Not anymore. |
| Town you live in?: |
Hartland |
| Favorite foods?: |
Sushi, Grandma's Dumplings, Grandpa's Pot-stickers, Cabbage Rolls, |
| Ever been to Africa?: |
no |
| Been toilet papering?: |
no! I should some time tho. |
| Love someone so much it made you cry?: |
My sister. |
| Been in a car accident?: |
only minor ones. |
| Croutons or bacon bits?: |
crutons! |
| Favorite day of the week?: |
saturday? Maybe. |
| Favorite resturant?: |
See toher quizzes |
| Favorite flower?: |
Bird of Paradise |
| Favorite sport to watch?: |
Hockey |
| Favorite drink?: |
God damn, look at the other quizzes |
| Favorite ice cream flavor?: |
Mint Choc Chip, or Birthday Cake Remix |
| Warner Bros. or Disney?: |
Disney |
| Favorite fast food restuarant?: |
taco Bell, Wendy's, Subway |
| Carpet color in your bedroom?: |
Whitish beige with flecks of others. |
| How many times did you fail your driver's test?: |
I have not taken it :( |
| Whom did you get your last email from?: |
Aaron |
| Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?: |
Lucky or UO |
| What do you do most often when you are bored?: |
Can I say that on the internet? haha, jk, I watch Television, and I don't regret it or think it unhealthy. |
| Most annoying thing to say to me?: |
No Offense |
| Bedtime?: |
Whenever I fall asleep |
| Favorite TV show?: |
Desperate Housewives |
| Last person you went out to dinner with?:: |
Nicole and Karey last night |
| Been out of country?: |
Canadia |
| Believe in magick?: |
Not really. I believe that if you put enough positive energy toward sometihng, a lot can happen. |
| Ford or Chevy?: |
Ford. |
| What are you listening to right now?: |
Headlock - imogen Heap |
| Have you ever failed a grade?: |
No |
| If you have, what grade did you fail?: |
|
| Do you have a crush on someone?: |
Everyone has a crush on SOMEONE |
| Do you have a bf/gf?: |
no |
| If so, what is their name?: |
Their name is Lucy, and shes' my ipod. |
| How long have you been together?: |
i bought her in the mid summer. |
| What are you wearing right now?: |
grand valley t shirt and Pajama pants. |
| Would you have sex before marriage?: |
probably |
| Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: |
I don't think so. |
| Are you a virgin?: |
Yes. |
| Do you smoke?: |
I like Smoked Jerkey. |
| Do you drink?: |
Yes. Drinking is necessary to life. You die without intake of fluids, silly. |
| Are you ghetto?: |
Most certainly not. |
| Are you a player?: |
I play piano, and i play some video games. i also play cd's. |
| What are your favorite colors?: |
Grey, White, Black |
| What is your favorite animal?: |
Three Toed Sloth |
| Do you have any birthmarks?: |
none very large. |
| Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: |
Literally? I'm sure that someone has kicked me in the ass. |
| Who do you talk to most on the phone?: |
Jessie or Aaron |
| Have you ever been slapped?: |
of course |
| Do you get online a lot?: |
On the weekends |
| Are you shy or outgoing?: |
i'm quite outgoing, but only when i'm with people i know. If i'm surrounded by people I don't know, i'm very quiet |
| Do you shower?: |
YES! I aslo like baths. |
| Do you hate school?: |
Yes. |
| Do you have a social life?: |
i'd die without it, |
| How easily do you trust people?: |
not very. |
| Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: |
I don't think so. |
| Would you ever sky dive?: |
It's on my list of 101 things to do before I die. |
| Do you like to dance?: |
yeah |
| Have you ever been out of state?: |
yeah |
| Do you like to travel?: |
mmhmm |
| Have you ever been expelled from school?: |
nope |
| Have you ever been suspended from school?: |
yes |
| Do you want to get out of your hometown?: |
YES |
| Are you spoiled?: |
fairly |
| Are you a brat?: |
Kind of. |
| Have you ever been dumped?: |
Yes. |
| Have you ever gotten high?: |
I climed to the top of Mt. Brighton, that's pretty high. |
| Do you like snapple?: |
It's alright |
| Do you drink a lot of water?: |
not really |
| What toothpaste do you use?: |
Crest |
| Do you have a cell phone?: |
Yes, her name is Ethl |
| Do you have a curfew?: |
Officially, Yes I do. off the record, not really. |
| Who do you look up to?: |
I really admire my grandmother. |
| Are you a role model?: |
A role model of a different color, maybe. |
| Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?: |
both |
| What name brand do you wear the most?: |
Gap, probably. I like that it doesn't advertise where I shop to everyone. |
| What kind of jewelry do you wear?: |
bracelets on occasion. Class Ring when i'm wearing green. |
| What do you want pierced?: |
Ear, Cartilage, possibly Labret. |
| Do you like takin pictures?: |
yes.. |
| Do you like gettin your picture taken?: |
Yes. |
| Do you have a tan?: |
not in the least. |
| Do you get annoyed easily?: |
Depends on where.what i'm doing |
| Have you ever started a rumor?: |
definately |
| Do you have your own phone or phone line?: |
Yes, i have my own phone, and my own cell phone. |
| Do you have your own pool?: |
my own pool? as in for my private use , and not my family's? no. |
| Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: |
Breifs are more comfortable and provide less leg stickage. |
| Do you have any siblings?: |
I have a half sister, Miki, |
| Have you ever been played?: |
I don't believe so. |
| Have you ever played anyone?: |
No. nor do i ever plan to. |
| Do you get along with your parents?: |
Not really. |
| How do you vent your anger?: |
Music, Passive Agression, |
| Have you ever ran away?: |
yes, but i ended up coming back before anyone knew I was gone. |
| Have you ever been fired from a job?: |
no. |
| Do you even have a job?: |
yes/ |
| Do you daydream a lot?: |
Far too much, actually |
| Do you have a lot of ex's?: |
A fair amount, not an uber ton. |
| Do you run your mouth?: |
Yes. |
| What do you want a tattoo of?: |
A barcode? Or Conan O'brien. |
| What do you have a tattoo of?: |
I have some beauty marks
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
But You've
Somewhere To Be...
Soooooo.,.... It's been like 12 years since my last entry. I can't belive it's only 11:14 on a thursday that I have no school, and i'm awake. I'm wide awake, actually. i've been up for hours. I'm just kind of lounging. I'm on AIM on invisivble. I don't feel like talking to anyone, but I also want to keep tabs on who's awake yet. Yesterday after work, Courtney, Greg, and i saw "North Country", It was good. The ride home was probably more fun, though. So the header pic is Immogen Heap. My obsession.
She spent a year in this tiny in-home studio, recording her latest album. She played every instrument herself, mixed everything, wrote everything, sang everything. I admire it. I've just recently had L teach me how to use the recording equipment at the school. i'm ready to lay something down. I've got too much passion not to pursue this. All I ever think of is playing music for my whole life. That, and making films. But Music is my first passion. It's so hard to get into, but I don't care if i'm homeless and singing with a keyboard on the street, people throwing money into my case. That's what I need to be doing. That's all that I feel.
In My recent numbness, I've come to realize that the only time that i'm living recently is when i'm singing, or listening, or creating. This has to be what i'm meant to do. Cassie Hennessey Said the other day:
"It's got to be what you're supposed to do. It's not normal that someone can just sit down at a piano one day and be able to create something."
she's right, too. I don't know what the proper chords are on the piano, I hardly know the names of the keys, i can't sightread, but i can create on it. My hands just feel where to go. I can feel what key makes which sound. It's just somewhere within me. I've got to try to harness as much of that as I can.
I've also re-started voice lessons with L, and they're going pretty well. I just don't think that i'm meant to be a classical singer. I can sing classically fairly well, With good practice and control, but I don't feel it when i'm singing. When i'm singing something that i've written, or that I love, I can feel every lyric. I don't know how to describe it.
I once said something like - what makes an artist an artist, is that they have the ability to convey the exact feeling inside them at one moment, and make the other person feel it through their art. I don't know how it makes people feel when i sing *(they're probably like ugh shut up!) - - but I know what i'm feeling, and I know that it's in my voice. There's something more to music than appealing sounds and vibrations that send signals to your brain. There is something far, far deeper. Sometihng that I don't think anyone can describe. There aren't words. So Cliche- but cliches wouldn't exist if they weren't applicable.
So I guess that's where I am right now. I don't often see friends, and that depressed me at first. Last year all i could remember was how much I was with friends. Then i remembered that I wasnt. Some weekdays, yes. Drama, yes. But not super often outside of our shared after school activites. i spent a lot of time on the phone with jessie. I think that's where part of it originated from. The fact that I had a lot of contact with people, so i thought I had seen more of them last year than I had this, but it's simply not correct. I work now, so I have my work friends, but It's not like I go out with any of them and do shit, other than Elley, who doesn't count cause she goes to school with me anyway.
That doesn't keep me from missing them, but oh well. I saw CG last night. i'm supposed to do something with Elley today, I dont' know if I'll be able to , based purely on rides. I hope so. I think Lexi and I are supposed to do something over the weekend, and I'm sure i'll do sometihng with Lara, as she and i have tried for quite awhile to get together, but it kept falling through. i may see Courtney, i'd like to say that i'll see greg over break , but i doubt it. Greg has his own agenda. I guess that i'm finally starting to realize that that's fine. My friends do other shit that doens't involve me. I understand that. i do shit that doesn't involve my other friends. If I hang out with Jessie or Lex, there's no greg audrey lara alix, etc. And Vice Versa. Courtney is probably the only completely versatile friend that I have. SHe's friends with all of my friends, pretty much. Courtney and I can go out one day with Alexa, the next with Greg, so on, so forth.
So we'll see what happens. Who knows where i'm being led? I don't. But i'm content with that for now.
holiday season is fast approaching. I'm not buying anyone christmas presents. Courtney and i may hit everyone with A drive by shooting (throwing fast food at someone's poorch), but other than that, i have like 600000000 birthdays to worry about . Lol.
Here is my list of B-days in Dec. i don't have all dates correct, i'm sure.
Dec 1 : Lauren S.
Dec 6: Greg
Dec 17: Cole
Dec?? : Nicole Lacey
December 12? : Nikki
December 28 or 29...maybe 30?: Jessie
December 31: Lara.
then I'm getting something for Elley, and Something for Audrey, cause I couldn't make it to her birthday this year.
that's an effing lot of money that i don't have. Lol. My next cheque will be like 75 bucks , if i'm really lucky. i've got maybe 100 right nwo. MAYBE. Then I dunno how big the check will be. I work 8 hr on sunday, then 4 hr next wednesday, and after that, who knows? That's not a lot of cashflow, and I have really good gift ideas that aren't cheap...
So where is all this coming from? I can probably get Lara and Jessie's with Christmas money, and Nicole and I decided not to exchange. That still leaves me with a fair dent, still. Oh well, i'll figure it out.
Cole
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
'Cause I know That
Forget At All...
So, I haven't made an entry in a bit, but also, I don't have a lot of time right now to finish.
Pretty much, everyone and everything still sucks... Kinda.
My foray into finding beauty in music has turned up ever-so eventful, however.
Who's beautiful - -
Imogen Heap
John Legend
Sigur Ros
Bjork
Dido
Squarepusher
And select piano tributes to various artists. Namely, the Piano trubute to Nirvana's song "Lithium"....
BREATHTAKING
It's so jazzy and has this ethereal something, that I can't quite put my finger on. It prooves how deep Kurt really was though. He wrote music that can translate into all mediums. I'd like to hear a string quartet tribute to Britney spears.
'snot gonna happen. That's just surface music. Nirvana had depth. I guess that's what I'm really looking for right now in my music, and other areas.
Something else with depth. Someone to dive with.
cole
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Friday, October 21, 2005
Over There, Stands My Angry Angel,
And He's Shaking His Head
In Disgrace At Me
Well... I'm in 6th hour at the mo, and I'm pretty damn happy about this being the weekend. I need a rest. I'm supposed to go out with Danielle and Paige tonight, so that will be fun, though I don't know what we're doing, or how I'm getting home to brighton, as I'm at mom's this weekend. Oh well though. The thing that I like most about being at mom's house is that I get to be alone during the day a lot. I prefer to be alone when I'm at home. I like the feeling of having a building all to my own.Feeling like it's mine, feeling like I'm the only person alive. As much as it is lonely, it's just as much enjoyable. I don't know why. It's also beginning to tick me off, so oh well.
Ugh. I don't want to ride the effing bus today, but my neck hurts like hell,so I don't think I'll stay after in a practice room, or go to the library either. Bus it is, I suppose. Damn you! I hate the bus. Everyone's constantly talking and being immature and annoying, and it really perturbs me. There is a time to be childish, and there is a time to be quiet. Bus time, for me, is quiet time. I hate everyone else. Even if I'm not going to be quiet, I'm at least going to be Intelligent. I can't stand stupidity. I can't stand naievety. I can't stand novice, even though I've been a novice many times before. My goal in life is not to teach, it's to live. I hate when I have to teach someone something. And that's kinda weird, because I've considered being a teacher so many times that it's rediculous. But I'd be more of a discussion teacher. A lit teacher, art history, things of that sort. THings that can be left to be discussed and interpereted to each student. Not something to spoonfeed. Interperetave things. I guess. Whatever, I'm so off track from where I began.
I read a great quote about Shakespeare today. It's so good. It describes in every reason why I love him.
(paraphrased)
" Reading Shakespeare is like looking at a dark art gallery photo, that you can't make out at first. Then when you look at it closer, you start to see features, and as you combine those features, you realize that they are your own."
So true. Shakespeare is hard to get at first. But once you get him, you see yourself in the story. The story is about you. He came up with so many of the thigs that we say daily. SO MANY. People who say that they don't like shakespeare, don't like him because they've been taught not to. Or because they haven't read the right play. He appeals to the masses. He's amazing.
A rose by any other name would smell as sweet
Parting is such sweet sorrow
What's done is done
To be , or not to be?
All The World Is A Stage
Tis better to have loved then lost, then never to have loved at all
It is not enough to speak, but to speak true
There is nothing neithre good nor bad - but thinking makes it so
Be not afraid of greatness. Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them
It makes us or mars (breaks) us
Fair is foul, and foul is fair
A Man can die but once ( you only live/die once)
A Friendly Eye Could Never See Such Faults
Defend your reputation, or bid farewell to your good life for ever.
This above all: to thine own self be true". ( Be True To Yourself)
Though this be madness, yet there is method in 't.". (method in madness)
too much of a good thing
So wise so young, they say, do never live long ( The Good Die Young)
Tempt not a desperate man
Love is Blind
Eaten me out of house and home
Master of one's own fate
Nothing will come of nothing
Wear mine heart upon my sleeve
The Game is up
I have not slept one wink
The Stuff dreams are made on
Think how much you say one form of all these things daily?
Cole
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
Why Are You So Quiet So Suddenly?
Go On, I'll Bet You're Just
Dying To Try Me...
How did you get this number? I can't get my head round you.
Ah, Frou Frou, what would I do without you?
I woke up this morning and went on my back patio and just swang. That's what I do now that I have no friends (Other than you, elley/Lara). I sit and listen to music and think. And you know what? It Feels kinda good. It feels very empty and lonely, but it feels good.
Last night I made myself a candlelit dinner, at my huge dining room table, alone. Immagine a room that's lit completely by candlelight, and a long dining room table, with just one person sitting at the head. It was nice. I like me. I'm just kinda sick of me. Maybe everyone else is , too?
Oh well. I'll manage to live with it.
The sun has not penetrated the clouds in two weeks now. There has not been one sunny day to speak of. What is that? Does nature just know how to paint my feelings on the sky? How cliche' did that sound? uber. But oh well, cliche's are around because they have mass appeal.
I'm still very upset at the "my friends are ignoring me " situation, but it's their life, i suppose.
"It's your life...
But you've only got one"
~ Frou Frou
At least I got to sit and chat with Elley and Cassady for a bit, while sipping hot chocolate. It's still not enough though. I need to be doing something. I don't know what. There's nothing TO do. I'm not interested in movies anymore, and I LOVE tv, but I need to lay off, and I don't like shopping anymore.... It's like everything that I once held dear is now unimportant. I need to find something else to entertain me, because nothing's succeeding. I just want things to go back to summer. Before School, before stress, before fighting.... before everything. Back to the time when everything fell into place and seemed so right. That's all i can really ask for. Summer.
"Wasting All My Time With You,
The Water's Warm and, Sky Is Blue,
Take Me By The Hand And Lead Me Somewhere,
There's a Smile on Your Face, And A Breeze in My Hand,
La da da...
This is where I Want To Be,
I'm Here With You, And You're Here With Me,
There's Sun On My Cheeks, And My Feet Are In The Sand,
My Eyes Are Fixed on the Horizon, There's A Guitar In My Hand,
And When You're Here, The Summer's Never Over,
And These Black Keys , And your shining smile,
Are All I Need,
If I Could, I Just Might Stay Here Forever,
With My Head On Your Shoulder...
For an Eternity..."
"Ode to Summer" ~ Stepfanie Steinkopf
I subsitiuted the words "six strings" for "black Keys", cause I don't play guitar.
It's so true tho. What would I give, to not have a care in the world? To wake up each morning with nothing to do, but to figure out what I'm doing in the evening? To be home alone during the day, and leave before my parents get home, and for them to be asleep before I get back. For life to seem like i'm independant from anyone, and food just miraculously appears in my cabinets and refrigerator, and I do as I please.
That was this summer, and I think i'd give anything to live inside it for the rest of my life. I didn't worry about where I was going in the future, or where I was right now, I don't rembeber caring at all, actually. Not about anything.
That's why school has depressed me so much this year. I wasn't walking down the road to hang out with my friends anymore. We were out ON the road, daily, doing what we wanted. The biggest worry that we had was how to pay for gas, or making sure that our parents didn't figure out how late we were for curfew.
Now the weekends become a countdown. On saturday, we know it's sunday tommorow, and on sunday, we know we have to go back to school. So it's not a break, its, "I have to go back on monday... ugh." It's not carefree. It's horrible, actually. The thought of school looming over my every weekend action,in turn, ruins my weekends. Also, the lack of friends' compassion doesn't really help. I'm still trying to figure out just what I did. Where was I disloyal, or a Betrayer? What Have I done to make them just abandon me? Pack up and move somewhere else.... What's wrong with me?
Maybe I shouldn't be blaming myself, but I've done a lot of Introspecting lately, and I can't seem to find my fatal flaw. If someone knows, please inform me promptly.
Enjoy Your Show,
cole
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
The Dust Has Only Just Begun To Fall....
Crop Circles
In The Carpet...
Does anyone smell something?
I smell Drama. Bigtime. Everyone is fighting..... Again, Bigtime.
Alix and Greg
Alix and Paul
Greg and Paul
Lara and Greg
So I've decided to keep my little mouth shut. I'm involved in the Lara/Greg fight, but everyone's going at greg at once, and I guess I'm just gonna keep my mouth shut about it for a bit. I'm upset, in reality, yesterday I was infuriated, but , I guess I'll wait until the dust has settled. We were all supposed to go to the haunted house yesterday, and greg told me that he'd call me. needless to say, I completed the day callless, and I was sad about it. Elley went tho, and brought up that I was sad about it, and then they told her that I wasn't invited because I'm loud, and I make fun of people... But that's how they all are, so I really don't see the relevance, but whatever, they can call the kettle black as they please, it's their right, I suppose. That doesn't keep it from hurting.
But then, why not call Lara? If I'm loud and obnoxious, and lara isn't, why not hang out with at least HER? What is happening with everything suddenly becoming exclusive? Greg talks about how the phone works both ways, and he's right. I could have called and invited myself, but no one wants to be CERTAIN PERSON'S NAME. There are many CERTAIN PERSON'S NAMEs in the world, and I don't prefer to be one of them. I'm not going to invite myself, I assume that If I'm not invited, it's because i'm not wanted there, and What they told Danielle prooved that theory to be correct. So oh well. What I don't understand, however, is why.
What have I done? Is greg still harboring bitterness toward me saying that he has "little man syndrome"??? - and if this is the case, then why hasn't he said anything to ME about it , when he's been talking about it openly with his new crew? Why not go to the source of the problem, instead of complaining to all your friends?
Then again, I guess I'm doing the same by not bringing up my conflict with greg...
So I think the main issue is jealousy. Let's all admit that we're Jealous. ok?
I am jealous of Alix for hogging up all the greg time, And I believe Lara is too.
Paul is jealous of Greg, for being such good friends with Alix
Greg is Jealous of Paul, for being more than friends with Alix, and taking attention
Alix is Jealous of her mom for socailizing with greg, when greg is HER friend.
So this is where everyone gets defensicve.
I write blogs expressing my anger, and lara writes comments,
Paul Lashes out at Greg
Greg Lashes out at Paul
Alix Lashes out at Greg
Basically, that's just a lot of unnecessary drama, that we all need to get settled. I think that greg being on the recieving end of 3 out of 4 conflicts, is not fair to greg at all. But that doesn't keep the conflicts from existing, and they need to be solved at some point, just not all at once, because poor greg can really only take so much. I understand why He'd be upset. It wasn't really until this morning, that I began looking outside the box, and trying to realize how this is affecting people other than Me. How selfish of me, to think of my own feelings the whole time, and not wonder who else may be hurting, even if they don't show it.
We're all hurting right now.
Lara and I hurt because we miss what we had with one of our best friends
Greg hurts because everyone is attacking him
Paul hurts because he's being attacked too
Alix hurts for being caught in the middle
And there are even more people that are suffering from these conflicts. These are just the main people involved, I guess. We all need to take a step outside the box, and try to put ourselves in one another's shoes for a bit. Immagine being greg right now, everyone that you hold close , aside from one or two people, is attacking you. Think of being Alix, Being caught between a friend and something more, Think of paul, who just wants to be happy without pissing everyone else off. Paige, who can't have what she wants, and it kills her. Danielle, who just wants everyone to be happy, but she doesn't know how to make them feel that way. She's trying to bear the responsibiltiy of pleasing everyone. It's a hard thing to do, being on everyone's side.
We're all suffering, and until someone shows some empathy for everyone else, and thinks about the big picture, rather than the focal, We're Fucked, people.
Let's not be fucked.
Cole
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Sweeping
Insensitivity
I have not blogged in like 14 years. I have been everywhere and nowhere all at once. School and work occupy most of my time, and the time that I don't spend there, I'm either sleeping or doing something. I'm on the computer twice a day on average, first when I get home from school, and then when I get home from work/wherever I am.
A lot of bad things have been happening lately, and it's all really screwed up. None of them have happened to me, but the all affect me, and the way that I live my life day to day, and think, and what I think about.
Bad things come in threes (according to medieval myth) - so here are the three of this most recent outbreak.
1. Kate got preganant, and I'd never seen her happier, and she lost the baby on saturday night/sunday morning.
2. Mrs. Johnston's kidneys stopped working.
3. Danielle and Justin broke up.
It's all so weird. Like, how can a highschool breakup that I'm not even a part of concern me? Something that small. Kates and Mrs. Johnston's are both relevant, they're death and sickness , which is a general concern of people's. But even the breakup effects me. Maybe I just tap myself into other people's feelings, and have 100% sympathy for them. I don't know. Whatever, I guess. I'm in creative writing right now, doing nothing, because that's what I do best, like tiggers.
It's just an odd week. Actually, we're reading MacBeth in Brit Lit right now, and we went over how the weather was effected by duncan's death. Light couldn't penetrate darkness, there was an air of depression and wind, and clouds, and rain. I guess that's how it feels right now. Like nothing's right. Like the earth moved somewhere else, and everything's changing. I just don't feel like I'm living in the same place anymore. Did I get transported to an alternate dimension overnight, and I have yet to completely accept where I am? Or is all of this really happening? It feels like I'm just watching myself from somehwhere else, far off. I feel like, when you drift off in class, and then you shake your head , and you're lik e- whoah, I didn't hear a word that they just said cause I was just somewhere else in my head. I feel like I'm in that place. Wherever it is. Everything seems surreal, and I don't really know how to capture it with words.
If anything, I just want it to still be summer. That was the summer of all summers. Will fall be the same? Something in me is begging for it to be, but everything's cold, and I'm sinking back into my isolated state. When I go home, I sometimes sit for hours on the swings in my backyard, and just get lost in music or reading, or writing, getting ideas. It's good, it's productive. But it's not LIVING. It's not like this summer. So is it bad? Or Is it just different?
I'm not sure.
I'm desperately trying to hold on to my friends. I have no classes with Lara, so I rarely see her, I have government with Greg, but I'm switching out, at least I still have lunch with him. But it's not like we go do stuff all the time anyway, really. Not as much as I'd like to be out . Courtney and I really only see eachother in the morinings, Alix is always out with greg, and I'm not going to invite myself, nor feel bad for myself, because that's retarded. People will hang out with me when they choose to, I guess. Danielle and I do a fair amount of chatting and hanging out, so at least there's that.Audrey pretty much decided to stop existing for a bit, I guess like I'm doing... I just don't want to lose what I have with all of these people. Do I try to keep it together? Or will it be like with Jessie and Lexi, where, even though I haven't hung out with them in forever, every time I see them, it's as if I've spent every day for 12 years with them. I don't miss them, because I don't have to. Our bond isn't lagging.
Whatever is going on, I need to figure it out. If you go through ever blog that I've ever written, it's often just me asking questions. Most of these questions are still answerless. I don't know. How many times do I say those three words? There is so much to life that I don't understand, why things happen the way they do, how everything is effected, where anything ties in. So do I wait? Is that what life is? Just waiting till you die so you can either cease extistance, or find out what you have been wondering all this time?
" Where Are we? What the hell is going on? The Dust has only just begun to fall, crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling. Spin me around again, And rub my eyes, this can't be happening.
When busy streets, amass with people, will stop , to hold their heads, heavy.
Hide and seek...
Trains and Sewing Machines.
All those years, They were here first.
Oily marks appear on walls, where pleasure moments hung before the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity, of this still life."
- - - - - - "Hide and Seek" - - - ~Imogen Heap
Enjoy your show,
Cole
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Monday, September 26, 2005
This Elevator only
Goes Up To Ten
Ummmm... I'm definately not doing what I'm supposed to be at the mo. I'm in creative writing, bored as friggin hell, cause all the good sites are blocked here at the damn escuela. I'm doing a project on Serial Killers, so ninety percent of the pictures that I need are categorized under "Adult" and therefore, I cannot use them. I'm pretty effing awesome, I'm well aware.
Gargh... I don't know where I've been lately. I'm just kind of living day to day, while doing nothing. I have no goals, I have no aspirations, I have nothing anymore. One thing that I do have is a meeting with Matossian ( my psych) on wednesday, and I'm definately going to see what I can do about getting my meds fucked around with. I need a change. Life has become a routine, and I'm about finished with routine. It's just a lot of the same thing over and over again, and it makes me want to die pretty hard. That's more or less the cause of my lack of blogs lately. I cannot report what's happening in my life, because nothing is. unless we need daily updates on what happens with my popcorn covered profession, or what my homework its.,... or more depressing rambling about how I can't feel anymore. Sometihng. Any thing. I don't know. Where did this class go? There are only seven minutes left of it. I don't know what to do. I don't want to ride the bus. Maybe I'll just get a practice room and start playing. Maybe I'll write. Maybe I'll go somewhere , and do something.
Who knows anymore? There aren't a lot of options. There's nothing new. I think that's why I like movies. They're new. Even when you've seen a movie a million times, You notice something new every time. Every movie that you see is different. It's variety. Its something new in a world of everything the same. It's a place where everything is covered in grey. I love grey, but once all the lines start to blur, you can't tell what's what. It's an over abundance of grey, so that you don't know who or where you are, or what you're doing anymore. If this makes sense, please say ay. Because I don't know if I'm explaining it correctly. But I know how it feels.
At Least something feels right now.
maybe it's just the lack of drama.
Maybe because my daily life is lacking in drama, I think I'm not feeling, but in reality, what I'm feeling is contentment.
If I'm content, contentment is frickin boring.
Three Minutes till I get on the roaring yellow monster, or whatever I decide to do.
Enjoy Your Show
Cole
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 morbidpoe111 Call Me: Cole, Coley, Colonoscopy TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Cole Birthday: 12-17-88 Birthplace: Livonia, Mi Current Location: Hartland , Mi Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: Chestnut/Midnight ( Names of dyes ) Height: 5 10? Right Handed or Left Handed: ambedextrious - my right has more practice tho Your Heritage: spanish/polish/hungarian The Shoes You Wore Today: Chucks Your Weakness: Sweet People - Hot people Your Fears: Bunny Suits Your Perfect Pizza: Just Pepperoni Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Be Sexy - GOAL ATTAINED MY FRIENDS! Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: THATS HOT!!!! Thoughts First Waking Up: GAH Your Best Physical Feature: My Hair Your Bedtime: Whenever I'm tired Your Most Missed Memory: My sister's dad Pepsi or Coke: COKE MacDonalds or Burger King: Taco Bell Single or Group Dates: Single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino Do you Smoke: I smoke jerkey? Do you Swear: Fuck No! ( jk yes) Do you Sing: every waking moment Do you Shower Daily: Never - i take Baths Have you Been in Love: Not to My knowlege Do you want to go to College: yes Do you want to get Married: if its legal somedAY Do you belive in yourself: yeah Do you get Motion Sickness: sometimes Do you think you are Attractive: Chyeah Are you a Health Freak: Not really - but I HATE Greasy Food and I LOVE Salads. Do you get along with your Parents: I Fuckin hate them Do you like Thunderstorms: LOVE THEM> Do you play an Instrument: Piano - and My Vocal Chords In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes - alcohol is in so many things - cough syrup, mint spray, soy sauce, mouthwash, Kaluah In the past month have you Smoked: no In the past month have you been on Drugs: perscription In the past month have you gone on a Date: no :( In the past month have you gone to a Mall: FUCK YES In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: can't say I have In the past month have you eaten Sushi: YES - I Love fuckign Sushi In the past month have you been on Stage: Every Day In the past month have you been Dumped: Nope In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: I hate outside In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no Ever been called a Tease: yes Ever been Beaten up: yes Ever Shoplifted: yes How do you want to Die: Nautrally, Painlessly What do you want to be when you Grow Up: I want to do something with art - movies, music - something What country would you most like to Visit: Spain or Japan In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: green or Blue Favourite Hair Color: blonde or Black Short or Long Hair: Depends Height: 5 8+ Weight: any Best Clothing Style: Emo, indie, goth sometimes, prep ocasionally Number of Drugs I have taken: i take like prozac n shit Number of CDs I own: A fuckign Million Number of Piercings: One closed up in my left ear Number of Tattoos: I draw on my hands all the time? Number of things in my Past I Regret: I can't count
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